Your way is the best way.
Authentic, honest raw truth, mixed with some colorful language is completely normal. I don’t pretend to be anyone I am not. Masking our pain is what many people and society prefer. Certain friends and family may not want to see our pain and tears after a certain amount of time, it makes them uncomfortable because they can’t fix what is broken and lost inside someone they love. There are no words to comfort a Mother or Father when they have lost her child, regardless of the child’s age or how their child died. Its the absolute worst fucking nightmare a parent can endure and a living hell to survive and crawl back from.